At this moment, there remain only three active accounts here. I am still considering things in relation to all but one of them. As you may or may not note, someone is taking a bit of a respite for a time. In the meanwhile, I’m working on getting things in order, removing some hurtful situations, and generally insuring things move forward smoothly. I am not forgiving on my best day. This is not my best day. There are those of you who are appreciated and much cared for, but in the balance of things, it isn’t going to save you […]

“The Buddha approached suffering differently. He said that suffering is not inherent in the world of impermanence; suffering arises when we cling. When clinging disappears, impermanence no longer gives rise to suffering. The solution to suffering, then, is to end clinging, not to try to escape from the transient world.” The areas of my life in which I cling to things are few. But the places in which I do are horrendously difficult to overcome. I do not cling to material things. Everything I “possess” I can (and have, and could easily again)  leave sitting or given away. I do […]

for those who cannot see the videos here, this blog is going private (as in no more access) effective wednesday.  i’m leaving it open long enough for everyone who says they read here daily to see this. if you want to stay in touch with me, i suggest you hit the ‘connect’ button up top and send a request for email if you do not have it already. and if you have the email address or the phone number, i respectfully request you use it, as my time of courting response and begging contact are over. as in “I’m done.” […]

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they sit at the back table, having dinner. not exactly a special occasion, just getting out of the house and giving both of them a night without dishing washing. they take turns entertaining the child; who has eaten and is not yet old enough to be willing to grant someone else’s needs space over their own. the man startles slightly. his cell phone, clipped to his side, has gone off. obviously, unexpectedly. habit reveals him as he involuntarily unclips it and is looking at it before he can stop himself. a flash of impatience flits over the woman’s face, but […]

i had a long post here. i re-read it and decided it did not need to be written. suffice to say some things can’t be helped and i often have very real problems coming to terms with it when i encounter it. i am telling myself that it doesn’t have to matter. we’ll see how successful i am with this approach.

the shadow wood its tangled roots of memory and ancient pain still beautiful if darkly so walk its paths to find peace

hey stone, this one’s for you — a thank you for the link to the tao online. once, long ago, i began reading it and got to the second verse before life pulled me away and i didn’t return to it until now. picking up where i left off, verse three, i chuckled. what better example, eh? verse three is timely. so i thank you for that as well: Not praising the worthy prevents contention, Not esteeming the valuable prevents theft, Not displaying the beautiful prevents desire. In this manner the sage governs people: Emptying their minds, Filling their bellies, […]

it occurs to me that friendships die for one of three reasons: – major life change – neglect – betrayal one day, you wake up and you can no longer help asking, “why do i consider this person a friend?” i am learning that when that question is sitting in your mind, it’s time for a change.

one of the things i regret about getting older is that i’m not as willing to really let loose with anger the way i used to. this rant is hardly as all out as i’d LIKE to go. but it is as far as i can let myself go unless i want to go totally over the edge. age and wisdom tell me that is not advisable. like i said…. i feel regret for it. sigh. as always, click through to view.