making new words reinventing clever catchphrase for the process fixing fiction into new forms all of life made unreal

my daughter sent me an e-card for mother’s day. i know i will not hear from my son. i think of my real mother who died in 2003 and my real mother who lives in conyers and is getting older in that visible way that makes you so tender and pensive toward them. i think about my friend in new jersey, whose mother died just months ago and how this day will be hard on them. i’m about to give them a call. i think about my friend in georgia, who was very close to and for many years lived […]

spent the day playing world of warcraft. not much more to say there. had fun. have met some new folks who seem normal (we’ll see bout that). in other news, an odd follow-up to the february fiasco… an email arrived today from someone who only now (two months later?!?) replies. apparently, they saved the ad out and ‘thought about it’. i’m almost positive that registered ‘psycho’ here. i replied politely and told them i’m more than happy to talk to them but that i’ve pretty much given up on anything more, all things considered. i went ot the grocery store […]

omg! a morning vid! (click through to view!)

bit of a ramble before bed. good stuff. click through to view.

keyword, code phrase infinite sigh it is what it is and just is no matter time or circumstance it remains evergreen

i’m writing because i don’t feel like being on camera. payroll still hasn’t arrived and i am now -200 for it. which means when it does get here, i’ll have just enough (maybe) to pay the rent and utilities. nothing more. and will be waiting until tuesday of next week for this week’s pay as well. one step forward, two steps back. par for the fucking course. add to this that it is discovered today that not only has the company not committed to dita/xml, the current writer, my compadre, is fairly insistent that we run it all through frame […]

as usual, the onset of this cycle is tearing me up. insomnia and anger mostly. i’m pretty sure these are the result of biting it back until i just can’t anymore and then, going off into the woods (so to speak) and clawing up the trees and baying at the moon until it’s all out of my system. poor trees. as odd as it may sound, it feels good to be angry. maybe it is just having found the way to enjoy whatever is here, but i swear, i can feel my body temp rising and the way it wafts […]

temperature once more rising restless for the coming of change incense, amber carefully placed smoke curling soon to rise

done and done. feeds are cut, login is required, and if you don’t have a login you’re locked out. you’ve got to be logged in to read or comment here on out. finally got around to customizing the login page, which turned out nicely. for the next while it’s likely to be nothing but ranting and raving here. i’m entering a burn cycle and it usually is not pretty. on the up side, i always come out of these a better person and with renewed focus and contentment in life. so i’m looking forward to it. Phil, i’m making and […]