well. today was supposed to be a good day. it was supposed to be payday. and i’ve been beating myself up a bit for my negativity and worry that ‘something’ would go wrong and somehow i would not, in fact, be paid today. it is annoying as hell to be right like this. two things have me pissed off right now: 1) why the fuck did the recruiting firm not CALL me as soon as they realized they couldn’t find my timesheet? 2) why the fuck did they email me at 4pm to tell me they were missing it when […]

it is flexible. i’m going offline. most likely this site will be very quiet for a time, as any entry made beyond today will be marked private. for that matter, any reading will require login. if you wish to have a login in order to read, you need to hit the comment form (connect, above) and let me know now. as in now. if you wish to keep up on the artwork being done, they are published in small form at Flickr: http://www.flickr.com/photos/exsultarefenix/ i’m not really doing much with music these days and i doubt seriously that is going to […]

lost in winter we hold out for the someday when there is plenty you have lost weight i have lost hope take comfort dream of spring

tonight was movie night. hm. well, last night now, i suppose. two movies on the list one an indulgence in sci-fi not worth mention and the other, the title of this piece.

very short evening update. movie night commences now! click through to view.

as you might recall, last weekend, a friend was supposed to visit. they had car trouble and could not make it. we rescheduled for this weekend. i was stood up. for the last time. hence the previous video. i was pretty angry when i got started. so i ditched the first video and made another, the one you find immediately previous to this post. not only did this friend stand me up, they have not bothered to as much as call, email, or make any effort to tell me anything. no excuses. no word at all. suffice to say, it […]

a small video on the matter of making time. click through to view.

irony, in a single word.

(recording available: she-calls-you ) read on for the words…

– i’m not begging you for response anymore. people make time for what they want to do. either you do or you do not. – i will be moving sometime late may or early june. – don’t forget to take the press and coffee to work. – don’t forget to bring them home tonight, either. – need to turn on one of the heaters before leaving today. – Daka needs a friend. – the forum likely can be stripped out. the only ones using it are P and I and we could as well email. Less to maintain. more later, […]