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A damn fine piece by a damn fine group.

i am uncertain why i am thinking of you in this moment. the part of me that remembers ancient places and deep waters knows. the rest of me groans with unwanted reminders of hurtful things. i remember how long it took me to stop talking at you. i remember the hideous lies you still think are true. i remember the anguish of trying to show you differently and realizing it was impossible. realizing that you want to think those things. realizing that you want to believe them. i do not know why i am thinking of you, but i am […]

my best friend and his wife welcomed their son into the world today at 13:15 GMT, 8:15am my time. interestingly, i wrote an email at 8:32am my time asking after things. heh. just got the reply.

themes of conquered world. or so humans often think.

i’ve just finished reading pullman’s ‘his dark materials’, which most of you might better know as the trilogy from which the recent movie ‘the golden compass’ rises.

tile for the theme, the day, etc, blah, blah, blah.

once upon a time, i used to write every year at this time of year to The Man Who Does Not Exist. they were terribly, sappy, angst-filled, dreamy, indolent, and utterly prosey things. all but decadent with longing. i stopped writing them a bit ago, when i lost a good bit of my writing and many of those letters. but the concept has remained and this year, i’m motivated to write another… but not of the same sort. as you’ll see. (aside: i popped awake ‘for no apparent reason’ about an hour ago and the motivation to this seems rather […]

someone asked me in the context of learning more about me, “what makes you laugh? what makes you cry? what leaves you wanting more?” i’d never thought about those things in the context of trying to describe myself. it made for an intriguing exercise. i’m placing it here because the response was easier than i thought… and perhaps worth keeping.

i’m laughing at myself because i am at once worn out and exhilarated beyond all ability to convey.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-kO8bH0QQ8 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i2UTZ3uhjfw http://www.warnerbrosrecords.com/josh-groban-february-song?page=0,4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZBga34W57As numinous. pensive. rainy day wistful. beautiful.