yeshes.online

on the heels of my last entry, this odd urge, indulged. courage, methinks. perhaps silliness. it matters not. i enjoyed it and that’s what counts. auld lang syne by fenix Played 0 times Made with the Splice online sequencer. splicemusic.com

i was trying to describe this to someone earlier, the words weren’t exactly in place.

an unusually excellent day today.

you know, sometimes, this is just really bizarre. hrm. or maybe i am. hmmmm. or maybe it’s the same.

i’ve been learning lately how to savor the bittersweet things in life. it is an interesting process, since much of it deals with moving through and finding, if not contentment, at least succor in how the beautiful moments you experienced were never changed or touched by the things that scorch the rest of the ground. people and experiences, cherished, are shrouded in a layer of care and love that neither time nor anger can touch. it is that layer, the bittersweet, that i am thinking about tonight.

hitting the store today for groceries and comforts i’ve been missing. maybe a pound of a new roast/blend of coffee. finally got silverware that doesn’t lose it’s shape when you use it. hah. slow steps, but steps. one small frying pan, since most of anything i cook may be made in such a thing. amazing the difference a good pan makes.

2008. i suppose i’m supposed to make great, fluffy talk about a grand and infinite future in which anything is possible. but you know what? that’s every moment. and i reckon if i don’t manage it in this one, it doesn’t much matter whether or not i do in some future one. moments like this, i’m torn between laughing hysterically and bawling my eyes out. uncomfortable, that. may we all treasure every moment and learn to see them as the same. thought maybe i was going to ramble a bit, but no, nothing to say. guess it’s time to sleep.

while working today, the phone rings (i am still not used to having a land line. always flinch.) i pick it up and can immediately tell it is a telemarketer.

hoping to have some melody and such to go with in the near future. for now, the lyric, recorded and written. read on for more…