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direct evidence of the delusion in effect, at last, a chance to reply to it directly. not that the one choosing the delusion will ever see it differently, but because failure to reply and set forth where delusion is in effect is tantamount to saying it is correct or true, which it most profoundly, emphatically, and utterly is not.

archiving another chat log… here, reminding myself why it no longer matters, and also, why the thought of what has and continues to happen is sad.

archival. hindsight is never pretty. but perhaps something good comes of it. one can hope.

“Absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and blows up the bonfire. ” – Francois de La Rouchefoucauld

well. in an odd twist of ? it turns out the schedule i had was incorrect and i’ve missed Rinpoche. the teaching i thought was tonight was actually last night, the teaching today i missed by doing laundry, and the ones tomorrow and tuesday i shall miss for having to be at work.

today’s quote, courtesy of Mevlana Rumi: “Come, come over, more over, how long this brigandage? As you are me and I am you. How long this discrimination of you and I?”  tonight, i am to meet garchen rinpoche, which is a great honor and blessing. in this moment, with the water of the last month still dripping from me, it is my hope i might have some small words with him, and from him, find insight. but, for now, laundry. (chuckle) sometimes the extremes that are life just seem funny. tonight i will sit in the presence of wisdom incarnate. […]

archival. i’m enjoying this floating along the river. odd turns now and then, but interesting as well.

placing reminders as i go. this, a chat log.

i’m here. not much more for now. still. just saying. mondo actio el bloggo. of course it gets first choice. scrytching me arse off over there. lots of other stuff going on, too. sea change. tidal surge. suddenly the vanishing point is not so far away… which is odd. and a little frightening.