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laughing at myself for how pitiful i am sometimes. consider the nature of solitude and loneliness and the pure idiocy of it. now that i can. *chuckle*

so ok. you know that feeling you get when something completely unexpected happens? the one where you’re just boggled and bemused and your whole being is made soft and shimmery for it?

still piddling with the digital tiles, trying to get back to the place where i felt like i could make something worthwhile. thusfar, still obsessed with curls and seeds and abstracts, so rolling with it. for some reason, this just said ‘wrong speech’ to me. all the static, breaks, sharp points, and chaos of it.

deciding to turn to an old favorite to soothe and distract. book and then, the movies. to whomever reads, pleasant, peaceful, and safe may all your moments be. update to add today’s amazing item and a question — http://noosphere.princeton.edu/ what if we really are all connected? oh my stars. another update. this time to add what is my new prayer. what a beautiful thing: i honor the place in you where the universe resides. i honor the place in you of love, peace and wisdom. i honor the place in you where, when you are in that place, and i […]

there is so much thankfulness here for Buddhism. when suffering, in any moment, one can turn to its wisdoms and find, if not peace, at least a sense of possibility for it.

“His form has passed away, he has become a mirror: naught is there but the image of another’s face.” – Jalaluddin Rumi i wish i weren’t so observant. it is a curse. it forever brings to mind things i am trying so very hard to forget. it forever hurts me when all i want is to never feel such things or think of them, ever, ever again.

well, obviously some things are straightening themselves out in the deeps of my head. i had this ‘bizarro world’ dream… you know the kind, the ‘never in a gah-zillion years would this ever happen’ dreams… the ones you get that signal something is being packaged for permanent storage. well. that’s what i tell myself anyway. no other option is acceptable.

another one for the pile.  of course, the irony here is rather profound. all ways but one. always but one. the same. nothing. sigh.

i had a moment of nothing today.

got a ping on the ol’ stats page from someone i never expected to see swing by here.