They say there is no truly original thought remaining to humankind; that all advance, all innovation, and all potential for creativity is reduced now to the derivative, the mash-up, the remix, reboot, and of course “re-imagining”. I cannot challenge the assertion, how to manage it when proof of a negative state is beyond us? But I can suggest the need for a shift in perspective on the matter. We do not, I think, need new thought so much as we need to get working on a consensus for coexistence as a species of diverse genetic traits, competing for potentially scarce […]
Life is a mostly internal experience.
I forget who said it, but “they” said something along the line of, “Once your every dream comes true, what is left?” I always took it to mean that having dreams wasn’t a bad thing, but putting them higher than one’s day-to-day enjoyment probably isn’t wise. Of course, this flies completely in the face of most of the world; all the rules and methods and plans and processes to get money, grow money, save money. It’s funny, if you think about it: We become convinced that it is possible to know a sense of fullness, of richness, or of delight […]
Autotelic
Seed / Egg / Life I am very much that autotelic one and it is as well that I am; my interests and fascinations are odd and blended, my delights seem woefully unattractive to others. They are enjoyed, regardless (though this seems usually to engender negative response in the world around me). The glorious exception to this, what I have known as “life’s rule”, is the sweet, soft, shining light that is my husband, J. This is, to the best of my ability to consider it, perfection in this life. So much so that all the swirling detritus and dogma […]
Note to self: MMO analysis points (industry)
As the MMO genre continues to evolve in (what is now) a much more mutable industry, there are increasing signs that its stability as a genre will finally cross the threshold from closed to open persistence. The additions of data, machine, and semantic analysis are coming along in refining how well development and publishing houses can forecast (or validate) revenue, and those concepts are (albeit excruciatingly slowly) beginning to enter product design thinking. Look for more high differentiators and innovators to push the expectation of online and offline play, choice of public or private servers, and even connected-but-disparate worlds as current themes of […]
Flutter
There is a place where nothing is; all being and life extending and extruded, and spasming senses tremble for sensation that is not. A great and terrifying paradox – the ALL THAT IS NOT – within which no name can stand, no label will stick, and no boundary, be declared. It cannot fit in words, as even this contradictory paragraph deftly demonstrates. All truths are contradictory and paradoxical in the ultimate presentation. Not because that’s how they are, but because that’s how we are; stunted and blocked by our dualities, our dichotomies. All experience broken upon the fulcrum of perception, […]
Shine
Unwanted. All my life, I feel it; a weight of dull, dead eyes, not seeing me, only an obligation unwanted, an unfortunate-but-legally-binding presence upon the mind and being of another. I never wondered why. Why would I? The world was entirely certain. The normalcy of what is creates its own authority, it’s own terrible credibility. With time, it is sealed, like so much cement, into the abyss… falling, ever falling, into the quiet, dark void wherein I dwell. I float in it, you know. Always have. I did not realize even this until very recently. I just thought that everyone […]
This hump (day) is breaking, I think
I believe that We The People are being played. I believe that, around this globe, those in positions of leadership[1] and/or power know that there is but one thing to keep all of this speculative investment, revenue-hiding, debt kiting, usury-inciting, offshore-work exploiting, offshore-bank-account-infusing group of REPRESENTATIVES AND TRUSTEES proceeding (sometimes quite literally) full speed ahead: War. I believe that many United States government representatives have so greatly abused their position and power that they, themselves, are at long last fearful of repercussion. I believe that none of this is “conspiracy” so much as the infamous, ignoble, and illegal confluence of […]
YAHC (Yet another haiku chain)
This soft, crisp autumnGround cooling into deep sleepEbb point of cycle This calm, quiet fallGone beyond the precipicePast the horizon RelativitySo ironically saidPerceptions vary “You” versus “me”, or,“She”, “He”, “They”, “Them”, “Us”, or “We”;Sad dichotomy Gone, gone, gone beyond,The universe of my world:A collapsing star Noble PolarisConspiratorial winkShifting positions So say I, turning,Upon this crazy dirt ballHurtling through space I reached for those starsMade a couple of my ownAs if that matters Metaphor seasonSynchronized, the slow nodding,Life is but a dream
Downsizing
I find I’m not doing enough with this blog to justify the monthly expense. Sad, because I’ve been with this host for eleven years and they have just been aces. We’re in the process of preparing for an extreme down-size and there is a part of me that is happy for it. I feel the weight of all this “stuff” and it rankles. Every piece of it is a cord and hook that shackles me to a culture that I abhor but, oops, I did it again? Meh. The plan is to have a hauler come and just take whatever […]
ABCDiabetes (aka “homeostasis, what?”)
Albumin, blood sugar, creatinine, dialysis, endocrinology, frustration, gallbladder (gone), hysterectomy? I just know life must not overwhelm; perhaps, quietly, restfully, serenely, trust until victory will xeroticly jacht zen. Or not. I mean, really, when you add in the rest (and the lack of rest), the equation of balance becomes more and more overtly ludicrous; personally, I think the banal humor rests in that the names of things so completely obscure their meaning anymore… functional illiteracy meeting functional myopia meeting functional plausibility and having themselves a good laugh around the circumstances and events colliding in and around me. Palindromic Rheumatism sounds […]