rainy day, joints and muscles aching, but my mood has been light and content. finally could afford the eye exam. i chuckled for the eye doctor’s tsk’ing of waiting so long. ah, bifocals at last. but seeing clearly is a joy.
the list – 3 – irascibility
today has been a day of introspection, and not just a little melancholy. granted, i blame weird week for most of it… but not all. anyway, item 3 from ‘the list’:
the list – 2 – insecurity
continuing ‘the list’ and examining it for how it reflects challenges i need to address, item 2 of things that were hurtful to me by this other:
10-14-06, am
wow. morning reading brings yet another reminder that is comfort. it also underscores the recent realization that negative reactions are indicative of inner challenges, not outer ones.
the list – 1 – pride
i am not going to give myself time to change my mind about doing this. undertaking this first one immediately.
10-13-06, the list
in relation to the immediately preceding post, this is the list of the things that most hurt me. i admit that i am lightly surprised at how quickly they rise to be listed. i am at once ashamed to be so able to list them and somewhat relieved that i do not shy away from the listing. the process of relating them to myself so as to discover why they hurt will likely take more time and be more difficult. i intend to address each of these as their own topic over the coming days. that said, here is the […]
10-13-06, am
the words keep flowing to me, a river of confirmation and comfort, also of wisdom and learning. this, found within a favorite sangha, in response to my request for quote about removing oneself from negative situations, rejecting negative people, and that to do so is not a wrong thing:
10-12-06, pm
lingering with the sangha tonight, there was a dharma talk. it hit upon something very close to the bone here. i am thankful.
10-12-06, afternoon
ran errands. picked up groceries. new collars for the cats, as they’ve outgrown the old ones. new toys. bah. worse than kids and i can’t resist the thought of them gamboling around. brought it all home. collars not yet on, have let them enjoy a day of uncollared freedom. heh.
miracle drug (lyric)
i often archive songs that have lyrics that hold meaning to me. just found another. :)