yeshes.online

caught your livejournal entry. you really should do those more often… enjoyable to see new ones.

just got off the line with a friend, a very good, very helpful friend. we spent … stars… was it really four hours… four… hours *boggle* talking. they have helped me reach something of a epiphany. long overdue really.

dreamhost has been down most of the day for my domains. the server died. this site is only recently back online, the other are still down. i’ve spent the day thinking too much about all the wrong things.

insomnia has me yet again. today i spoke with someone who has been an intermittent presence since the break down on silver hand. fed has joined phoenix deschiado along with cassielle. i must say, cassielle didn’t surprise me. fed did. it is still painful to see how that pattern continues to repeat. once more, that house is abandoned, this time to poor beregrond. it is surely on its last legs. i sigh, and am thankful the concept and name managed to make it elsewhere. it would have been a true loss otherwise.

well, it seems the floodgates have opened. today, after over a month of silence, several responses and inquiries for work. hurray! unfortunately, most are contracts that i cannot take (instability), but one is a response from a government agency requesting that i go in for a fingerprinting and background check. this is a very positive thing!

every now and then, i receive a gift from the universe that so completely comforts and nourishes that i am boggled for it.

i should be sleeping. but as is usual after the gathering, i am weary without slumber. i know within scant minutes of placing head to pillow, i will be asleep… but i linger and am reluctant to release consciousness… moments slipping into memories, but not yet fully so, i inhale the scent of them, roses, all, and am drunk with contentment and peace.

thoughts of the forest remained with me all today. even in my gaming. even in my afternoon meditation and then, nap. even now. for some reason i have felt pulled to it for a time now… from the moment i thought about road-tripping again to this very moment.

puttered around outside for a bit this morning. the sky is clear, cobalt brilliance. the air has that crisp feeling that speaks to the season’s change, and i remembered as i was driving how this used to be the time of year i most enjoyed to go camping in the mountains.

spent some time with my daughter today. she took me shopping. insisted on buying me a suit to interview in… bought me lunch… we came home and shared the online gallery of baby photos, hers and mine. laughing, being close, and talking about things we’d like to do on some far flung someday.