yeshes.online

got an email from a friend in the uk tonight. he sends to me a most unusual image. the artist, someone by the name of ‘varo’. in looking at it, i knew at once why he sent it, and i smiled for it. the woman in the image stands with a shimmering circle in her hands. but it is sharp and unable to be other than hurtful. at the point where it met in front of her, there is now a gap. she has broken it. and inside her, the skies over the forest finally clear, and a path may […]

steak and potato in the oven, the smell is at once torment and promise. heh. i’m looking forward to this meal. the last few days have been spent overhauling the guild domain and setting in place a front end not unlike this one. now that we’re approaching 100 members, it seemed a good idea.

as usual, when unable to sleep, i turn to the sangha. a helpful piece i find, which in turn creates drowsiness. strange how it works, but it is as it is. noting it here for further contemplation, that it might benefit one who visits and reads, and that it will remain for reminder to me in future:

talking to my friend tonight (uk), they asked me a weird question. several, actually, but this one made me think about it long after the phone call ended.

the things we take for granted at times are amazing. i woke this morning and had actual FOOD in the house. little girl at christmas, rushed to the kitchen, set the kettle on, and went into something of a whirlwind of activity… sausage and biscuits and gravy and eggs and pressed coffee… minutes later, staring at the steaming plate, smells rising that made my stomach do the strangest dance, mouth literally watering and a sense of accomplishment that seemed silly.

ever have a day that just exhausts you? well today is that day for me. i was about to head out to the grocery store this afternoon and there was a white envelope clipped to my door. it was marked with the street address of my apartment. i take it. go back in. set down my purse and keys and slit it open and read it.

today’s horoscope (not something i usually look at) is interesting. it says, ‘the disappointments you encounter today are not something you can change.’ in light of the recent entry and the events of yesterday en toto, very interesting indeed.

i think the thing i like best about Buddhism is the manner in which, at any moment, what is needed… appears. today’s example, a quote found in a thread speaking on the compassion, working as a bodhisattva, and the process of striving:

the pettiness of some never fails to amaze. while doing routine maintenance for a guild domain i host (an online mmo), i discover the snake has made particular effort to bury our domain at google by opening the defunct one he holds and permitting the googlebot to index every page, link, and reference… effectively insuring any attempt to search for the healthy, thriving domain will be, if not impossible, then difficult for any but the seasoned search engine veteran.

i have a love/hate relationship with the rain. love it for the smell, the feel, the tickly droplets on my skin. hate it for the precipitous pain preceding its arrival. oh the pun. irony. hah. it has been raining for the last three days. i felt it coming over the weekend. stocked up on aspirin.