The hardest part for me was sitting there, driving you back from Yelm to the airport; I was listening as you told me all the many ways that the entire time you were at [children’s home], all you ever really wanted was something else, somewhere else; that you were only there because David wanted it. It was an unexpected clarity, to be sure; but it was also a very painful thing for me to hear. You see, all those years that you weren’t wanting to be there? You were my newest and best mother; the mother I never had, the […]
>=< (pure seed; pattern, anomaly, etc)
The pure seed pattern is that which is present in all things. It is the driver of all evolution, the cycle of all living things, and The singular, paradoxical anomaly in any organized system, and/or/else/not (all non-organized systems). You can find the pattern anywhere that you can develop a way to “look” for it. It follows all defined “laws of physics”, except when it doesn’t, but so far in the human endeavor, all the cases of “doesn’t” rest comfortably in our blind spot. We dismiss them as “failed” for want of “objective certainty” – itself, the impossible state – then […]
Morning thoughts, day 19435
Did you know the United Nations is pushing something called “ID2020“? Have you actually thought about how easy it is to profile and track you thanks to technology you willingly carry in your pocket? So much argument about “whether or not its real”. How real do you need it to be? There is the website. This is the difference between the opinion many accuse me of and the fact to which I am referring. Damnation, the dichotomies. All culture now rife with umbrage, we collapse inward and obfuscate in the name of ‘plausible deniability’ – because resolution is anathema to […]
So this is what parenthood is, it seems.
August 2nd… My daughter is getting married this month to a man she’s known at distance for seven months and in person for almost three months. When I expressed my concern and asked them to at least have a longer engagement to give them time to really get to know one another, it was brushed off as my being too fretful. On the other hand, they’ve decided to have a wedding in Hawaii sans friends or family. As she put it to me, “Why should I spend the time and money to have friends and family involved when they don’t […]
Kodotrope: Keystone
There are so many thoughts bound up here; lessons stippling like raindrops and sieving away about as quickly.
Suadade, too.
I used to love role-play. From pen and paper and D&D all the way to the MMO, I loved the sense of shaping a character who could be the best of me and, perhaps, benefit others in the process. For a time, it was simply bliss. Then, as with all things, it changed and became one of the most horrific and heart-rending experiences I’ve ever had in the digital domain. The details matter less today than once they did. If you allow yourself to be put upon a pedestal, you will slip, you will fall, and it seems that many […]
Adventures in foundation and basement repair
On November 19th, our basement flooded. Roughly 60% of the downstairs living space was soaked and we had to madly scramble to move everything to the upper floor to avoid water damage. Calls went in to insurance and ServiceMaster (for water extraction) and to work as well as I had to be home to let folk in, coordinate quotes, and receive the information needed to manage the repair process. As it turns out, home owners insurance does not cover ground water intrusion, nor rain water intrusion, nor intrusions due to man-made/caused issues (such as, oh, improper drainage, using improper hardware […]
Open Reply to Tim Stanley re: New Zealand opening of “The Hobbit”
(ref article: http://blogs.telegraph.co.uk/news/timstanley/100192299/send-these-horrid-hobbits-back-to-the-shire/) Given your purported educational background, I must admit that I am perplexed by your apparent inability to understand the recent fervor and enthusiasm that greeted the opening of the latest Tolkien classic rendered to film. I will assume for the moment that the bleach from your carefully frosted tips is the culprit; unless of course, you happened to have inadvertently pulled your drawers tighter than expected the morning you decided to write this pitiful expression of selectively blind culturalism. Could it be that your exposure to history is inferior to that which most Ph.D.s experience? Did you […]