It’s April 15, 2025, and the United States is collapsing, practically in real-time. There is an authoritarian, dictatorial, and utterly vindictive man child holding the highest position in our country. They were elected to it by the fascist, racist, and generally self-centered ‘white’ ignorance, a majority within the country. But it seems the federal government has held many fascist, racist, and self-centered ‘white’ intelligentsia for decades; seemingly waiting for the opportunity to ‘restore’ themselves to power and return any who are not part of this deviant ‘us’ to sub-humanized placements, beholden to them for life itself. This pattern has been […]
The working list – ‘family’
I want to be part of your life. I want to be part of my grand-daughter’s life. I want to have regular contact and communication with each of you. I want to be considered, included, and important in your lives. I want to be cared for the same as any other family member. I want to be allowed to care for and be around each of you. I feel unloved and unwanted. I feel as if you do not want me to be part of your life. I feel as if you only want me around when I can receive […]
Meaningful Experiences
My life is cluttered with meaningful experiences that profoundly changed me and shaped my life. In the midst of anger, grief, and the daily struggle of mobility, I am rewriting my own memories practically in real time as I reclaim, reframe, and rejoin my life, very much already in progress. The threads being unraveled and then, immediately rolled in again with updated context and considerable resulting nuance. I’m doing it alone as I cannot seem to find an ND affirming and trauma informed PsyD offering adult telehealth/psypact therapy. I’ve tried the gamut of LSW, MFT, and Psychologists of many preferences […]
Everything Old Is New Again (a series)
I love when old tech resurfaces and the professionals get to realize that the history of their domains, disciplines, and its innovations really IS critical to being better at what you do. Here is a great example from a channel on Youtube and I hope they do one on stop motion with sound synch and SFX so that Mike Jittlov finally gets the public recognition he richly deserves and has been largely bilked of all his dang life. This one is about a fellow putting it all on the line to reintroduce sodium vapor light as superior technology to green […]
And then, the writer’s block seemed to vanish.
The content that caused this deluge may be viewed here, but the reader should not presume the connections and thoughts will be immediately traceable. This is an intentional oversight for purposes of general respect of others privacy. My prediction for neural net autonomous, truly artificial intelligence made a leap forward toward reality recently, courtesy of a company called IntuiCell. My assertion over some decades, fed by an interest in computing and neural networks, an avid consumption of hard sci-fi, and my own career in analysis and product ownership is as follows: True artificial intelligence will arise not from programmatic systems […]
Paradoxes – Haiku & Tanka
great thunder as i spoke my truth just a perspective rumbling low cloud ground resonating what is a tock of the wheel a march to the kalpa edge a man coughs outside my door
Track Title: Promises (Recall)
ASCAP Registration #: 929487026 This is an angry song. If you are someone who might have reason to feel hurt by anger you should choose something else. Maybe the early stuff. Very early stuff. For the rest of you, demo followed by lyric, below. Life is a two-way street, they say Whether we drive or walk our way Give and take come what may Keeps relationships free from fray Eroded and gone I find my trust Ignored and shut out, its ashes and dust It should be no surprise, I do now what I must Insist to set me aside, […]
On Being An Outlier
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been an an outlier—not just in the neurotypical world but even within neurodivergent spaces where I thought I might find understanding. I’m a hyper-verbal, hyper-empathic, flat-affect individual whose mental capability has always measured “extremely high”. These traits don’t just make me unique; they often leave me on the edges of communities where I desperately want to belong. I’ve spent decades navigating this dynamic, and while I’ve built spaces of my own—a blog, ASCAP-registered lyrics, and posts on platforms like Bluesky and Discord—I still encounter the same painful patterns. Conversations go silent when […]
Track Title: Receipts
ASCAP Registration #: 929482704 Yes, now we see you’re vindictive Yes, now we see you’re contradictor Yes, now we see you’re restrictive Yes, now you see I’m predictor Punishing your own child just to get to me Happy Birthday, Unicorn Girl, My love will always be I tried to send you email, your mom has cut the cord Poisoned every well and every plowshare turned to sword Just like her half-brother, at the end of the day Stuck on buried resentment and rage because I sent her away Still doesn’t get it that it was always better for her that […]
Track title: This Is Fascism
ASCAP Registraton #: 929458861 This is fascism and it wants to come and stay To run our lives, take them too, as whim may Detained Prison slavery for any who naysay Command and control – it’s the game they play They’re yanking people off of our streets Think they’re allowed cuz they’re ‘the elites’ Not you they care for, just labor you can give If they like how you kiss the ring, you get to live Ontologically, they murder all dissent They act the same, this is their remit: Where are your papers? Prove yourself to me! What are you […]