1am and i am tired, should be sleeping 1am and i am relieved, should be happy suddenly, all the good things recede and all i can think about is the ocean, the distance and that i am missing you isn’t it silly? you’d think i didn’t want to be happy the way i so often miss you i used to say i didn’t understand how i could miss something i’ve never had but the shape of it, here, in my mind has been filled in over time and experience i know what i’m missing here at 1am
brushing up
heh. a little light reading whilst i wait for my start date of the 22nd, the following books were ordered from amazon tonight: “Agile Adoption Patterns: A Roadmap to Organizational Success” Amr Elssamadisy; Paperback “Agile Project Management with Scrum (Microsoft Professional)” Ken Schwaber; Paperback “UML for the IT Business Analyst: A Practical Guide to Object-Oriented Requirements Gathering” Howard Podeswa; Paperback mind you, it is not that i am unfamiliar with Agile and UML/RUP, but it’s never a bad idea to get the terminology and rails of the guidelines fresh in your head. my personal opinion on ‘methodologies’ is that most […]
great victory
heh. yes. i did. get it, that is. (beam) i start on the 22nd. paydays are weekly (thank the stars!) and in march of 2009, we’ll all huddle up to decide it i go permanent or not. i’m going today to pick up books on agile and rup just to brush up on it all, it having been a short while since i’ve been in the thick of either. i am relieved. i actually sagged into the wall when the call came. heh. someone has already said to me, ‘you should of had no doubt.’ but truth be told, these […]
morning thoughts
i’ll know today if i have this job or not. i’ve dreamt both outcomes, then daydreamt them again upon waking. comfortably numb; i’ve worn myself out fretting for it. i can do nothing but wait. the other direct hire position has poofed, so if this one doesn’t come through, i’m back to square one and, after a month of being here, that’s not good. but i’ll cross that bridge if/when i get to it. i also dreamt last night about the studio with the water view again. no idea where that place is, but i would sure like to find […]
pins and needles
just got a call from my recruiter, and they have received feedback on my interview yesterday. as expected when i left, the hiring manager (director of development, want to talk about nervous interview… i haven’t been that nervous in an interview in YEARS!), was very happy with my gaming background and thought i would be a wonderful ‘cultural’ fit. he also liked that i had ‘old school experience’; doing this manner of work ‘back in the days’ when there weren’t any fancy metholodgies about, meaning i had the mindset and logic in place to manage things. on the flip side, […]
of the coast
a call yesterday afternoon about 2ish from a recruiter with a contract to perm opening in my neighborhood. good money, easy duty, and close to home. i say i’m interested. we talk a bit about it. then she finally gets to telling me who it is. i ’bout fell out of my truck. a gaming company. a LARGE gaming company. i feel like i’m dreaming, because no sooner did she submit me than i had an interview. today, in fact. at 3pm, in fact. and you know what? i’m going to get this job. not only do they have 25+ […]
after midnight
made the mistake of having a nap today. this is the result. heh. not quite insomnia, as i am sleepy, but duty to be met, this blog. not a lot to report. i’m feeling a bit on the reflective side lately. not so much morose, which is a nice change. i’m looking forward to pre-hire interviews this week and having choices for a change (which is quite nice, thank you very much!) i’m also looking forward to getting things settled for this ‘last time’ in my life. i cannot tell you how nice it feels to know i’m staying here. […]
precarious
life brings me into very precarious positions on a regular basis. i’m trying to figure out if it is some manner of life lesson or if it’s just that i have a metric ton of kamma to settle while i’m here. no details this time, sorry, but just to say i see this situation and its similarities to previous ones. i note the pattern and finally see it with foresight rather than hindsight. best of all, i purpose to manage it differently. which is more difficult than you might imagine, since instincts and habits are still about and i’m not […]
brief thoughts (maybe)
something about being here has put me on a path of introspection and reflection. i don’t suppose that’s a huge change from ‘the norm’ but for the moments in which i see/feel it arriving as opposed to being all up in it and only seeing it as such after the fact. i’m not real sure what brought it on, but i was thinking of heath today. actually, i was thinking about how long it has taken me to see things as he seems to see them. sometimes, seeing another’s perspective is pretty damn hard. but, all things considered, i am […]