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i’m tired, i’m broke, my head is about to pop from the pollen, my arthritis is kicking my ass, and i’m pissed for being so bored that i’ve actually considered trying to go find a television to watch. where the hell are my friends? no. scratch that. i know where they are and you know what? they can stay there. i’m going to bed.

out of the blue tonight, i receive an email that one of my previous co-workers at the game company has found me on linked in and graced me with an unexpected recommendation. “…. was one of the main creative forces driving the video game. It was her creative writing that motivated myself and other artist to create the world. Her writing will continue to inspire and motivate where ever she goes, it was a pleasure being a part of the world she created.” (sic) wow. really. i felt so crushed when the lay off came and even moreso when the […]

taking a short break from drilling out process for work, and a friend’s email sent me an interesting bit of insight. i always find it comforting and rather curious when things that i think i’ve created turn out to be ancient bits of thought. i find it an experiential confirmation of connectedness. i mean, seriously, can you run into this kind of thing regularly and maintain doubt? i can’t.

  for the first time in almost three weeks, i actually slept through the night. consider me bouncing with happy. i sit here looking at four packets of flower seeds….

heh. i took a nap so am up later than i would be. i’m so pleased this isn’t insomnia that i could scream. and yes, thank you, i did wake in a much better mood. i also trash even MORE of ‘the archives’ and did so with a smile. removing names that hurt to look at feels good, particular since the only time they hurt anymore is when i see them unexpectedly. noting particularly deep or meaningful to talk about today and you know what? i think that may well be a relief, too. i wrote a letter today that […]

it’s going to rain. i’m achy for it. the neck is NOT happy. work was a bore today. weird week is up and i’m like a frakking over-ripe fruit. no, you really don’t want to know what that means. grouch factor is high and on the heels of what seems to be yet another abandonment, i’ve gone through and ripped out all related archives. you know, it actually felt pretty damn good to just do it and not wait (and hurt) for months before giving up. the pit cackles madly, ‘fuck ’em’. at the moment, i’m in agreement. very much […]

very cool and good for occupying this insomniac. http://www.zefrank.com/dtoy_vs_byokal/index.html

you know, sometimes i forget to appreciate the ethics and principles of those who, entrusted with our authority, uphold that trust in the face of what is admittedly very difficult moments. then, i run into those who do not and it reminds me to be more mindful and appreciative. the following YouTube video, just posted, records the manner in which the New York Police Department’s “finest” actually worked at turning a peaceful ‘Free Tibet’ rally into an all out shove fest so they could justify making arrests. it shows two officers of the NYPD committing assault upon people in crosswalks […]

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  patterns repeat sinuous snake infinite hunger swallowing the world, itself we follow ancient rites