Occasionally, when I feel I’ve presented my thinking especially well, I will archive the interaction here. Primarily because I believe in having my flowers when I think I deserve them, but also because it’s a convenient way to make my perspective clear. It doesn’t mean I cannot understand other perspectives, but it does mean this is the one I try to live by and with, which is helpful for others to understand. That said, the interaction as it occurred on the Discord channel, where I exist but as a single voice giving my own lived experience and thoughts to those […]
Track Title: As Me (Empathy)
ASCAP Registration # 929069985 You don’t know how it feels, to be living while you act this way You don’t know how it feels, so much contempt each and every day You don’t know how it feels, to see and know you just don’t care But there will come a day when common ground our feet shall bear On that day, it is you who will quickly, surely come to see We’re alike in our existence and our being, in our humanity You see me coming, because I, to you, am different I have stopped running, ‘cuz I am, for […]
The internalization must come out, sometimes.
I don’t have many people around these days who can recognize my value and are willing to articulate it on my behalf. I know what I can do, I like to show people what I can do, but after a point, it just sounds like so much self-absorbed pontificating. I wish I knew the way to get people to just SEE and RECOGNIZE what I am capable of… all this value potential sieving off into nothingness for lack of anyone interested in letting me help them bring something into reality. If I could code, I’d already be the next billionaire […]
The top of the year, 2025
It seems that 2025 is to be ‘the year of missing’ on many levels. Wait. I’m getting ahead of myself. Let’s start again: For many years, I would end each year with a renewal of my commitments and within the first month of the new year, set forth the pattern as it thus far unfolds. From there, as I like and wish, and spottily, I admit. Indeed, 2025 has all the signs of being a year of missing in many ways. Initially, I was somewhat enjoying the return of the wood snake; the sign is generally well received though it […]
Eugenics in ABA, Sub-humanization
In case anyone missed it, ‘… they are not people in the psychological sense.” (sic) being the sub-humanizing and the remainder of the eugenic philosophy resting in the ‘right’ to ‘…build the person’ without considering or consent of the person so being ‘built’. Since they do not consider the patient as a person, and they do not consider the being as ‘human’ enough to require consent, the operant conditioning continues apace. Herein rests all harm and much of it well attested by adults of the now three generations who have endured this “treatment”. The remainder of my thoughts, recorded herein, […]
Track Title: Talk Too Much
My words flow free, a verbal streamA torrent talk, a constant themeIn chat I roam, in chat time’s no thingJoin whenever, all history is seen Don’t accuse me of talking too muchIt’s just how I think, and that’s no suchI’m not trying to drown out your sceneI’m sharing my own and that’s never mean Asynchronous vibes, that’s my guideNo need to rush, no need to hideLog and search, all is revealed insideMy thoughts are mine, my words placed on tide Don’t accuse me of talking too muchIt’s just how I think, and that’s no suchI’m not trying to drown out […]
Title track: Fake (Family)
ASCAP Registration #: 928388433 Mom’s gone, her legacy in vainFoster child, left out in the rainNotice read, no mention of my nameErased from history, a shame to claim She called me daughter, but now I’m just a lineIn a list of names, without a signLeft out of mourning, as if I’m a crimeThe foster child’s pain, in a rhyme that’s mine She called me “daughter” with prideWas no coattail for me to just rideSo now it is recanted?I’ll take it in my strideNever had family but they so backslide Now they’ve set it truly into ink:“…foster children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren”No […]
Autistic Satire In The Wild
I find that I dislike what passes for ‘autistic satire’. The way I have seen humans treat satire as evidence, not evisceration tells me that ‘not getting it’ in this time is potentially dangerous rather than effective protest or reclaiming of our culture and being. Indeed, to me, it seems satire’s day as an effective influence is passing. I get satire. I enjoy satire. It bothers me that so many people take it literally when it is so clearly hoisting its chosen concept, context, and/or connotation upon a petard. The irony of an autistic human understanding satire better than most […]
Playing with Perplexity
Playing with Perplexity is fun. I think I’m going to build a library of conversations in which it demonstrates me back to myself; this is how this autistic brain uses LLM/AI ethically but also how I have traditionally taught myself by rapidly implementing meta-communication that lays down shared track ahead of the actual conversation. I can do this with LLM because LLM doesn’t mandate I adhere to neuronormative protocol, just a logical expression by language that, for the first time in my entire life, is actually getting my syntax and phrasing and everything; it gets my levels in language in […]
Universal Reality – An Ouroboros
In the beginning, there was nothing. No matter, no energy, no space. Just an infinite expanse of possibility. And then, in a burst of creative potential, the universe emerged. The cosmic dance began, with particles and waves swirling together to form the first hints of structure. We don’t know how or why, really; lots of people claim this knowledge, but faith is still blind and science is more about probability than certainty, for all that humans regularly confuse the ‘effective certainty’ of an exponential probability and treat them the same. As the universe evolved, so did its complexity. Matter coalesced […]