(Note: There is additional content in the audio that is NOT in the below as when reading, other thoughts occurred and where thus included, prefaced with ‘editorial addendum’ and an end cap of some few minutes on acknowledging privilege and an intention of keeping those voiceless many included as I can.) I’m watching other humans talking about their journey to autistic diagnosis and/or individual acceptance of autistic identity, but when I attempt to do the same, I find I’m stuck in a rut of needing to actively refactor my herstory and much of that work requires a mind space that […]
Considering ICE and my estranged family
I worry for my daughter and my grand-daughters. Does she, I wonder, realize that she is directly in the cross-hairs of current ICE efforts, alongside her daughters? Her father is Afghani (posing as Indian due to some hush-hush diplomatic status in the 80’s) and she is a citizen thanks to our birthright citizenship, which is a legal status that extends through her to her daughters. Now that this government is using HHS (medical), IRS (tax), and SSA (work) records to track and identify their new definition of ‘illegal’, all three are at risk and I seriously doubt this is even […]
My last words on this (estrangement)
When I look back on our family’s journey, it feels like a series of events that spiraled out of control, leading to a permanent estrangement that is both heartbreaking and deeply painful. When my daughter was 12, I had to let her live with her father for two years while I consulted on the road in an attempt to stabilize our family during the economic hardships of 2000-2001. I promised to have a place for her within two years, which I accomplished. But she “didn’t like” where I was living and rejected me, returning to live with her father. Even […]
The working list – ‘family’
I want to be part of your life. I want to be part of my grand-daughter’s life. I want to have regular contact and communication with each of you. I want to be considered, included, and important in your lives. I want to be cared for the same as any other family member. I want to be allowed to care for and be around each of you. I feel unloved and unwanted. I feel as if you do not want me to be part of your life. I feel as if you only want me around when I can receive […]
Track Title: Promises (Recall)
ASCAP Registration #: 929487026 This is an angry song. If you are someone who might have reason to feel hurt by anger you should choose something else. Maybe the early stuff. Very early stuff. For the rest of you, demo followed by lyric, below. Life is a two-way street, they say Whether we drive or walk our way Give and take come what may Keeps relationships free from fray Eroded and gone I find my trust Ignored and shut out, its ashes and dust It should be no surprise, I do now what I must Insist to set me aside, […]
Track Title: Receipts
ASCAP Registration #: 929482704 Yes, now we see you’re vindictive Yes, now we see you’re contradictor Yes, now we see you’re restrictive Yes, now you see I’m predictor Punishing your own child just to get to me Happy Birthday, Unicorn Girl, My love will always be I tried to send you email, your mom has cut the cord Poisoned every well and every plowshare turned to sword Just like her half-brother, at the end of the day Stuck on buried resentment and rage because I sent her away Still doesn’t get it that it was always better for her that […]
Track title: This Is Fascism
ASCAP Registraton #: 929458861 This is fascism and it wants to come and stay To run our lives, take them too, as whim may Detained Prison slavery for any who naysay Command and control – it’s the game they play They’re yanking people off of our streets Think they’re allowed cuz they’re ‘the elites’ Not you they care for, just labor you can give If they like how you kiss the ring, you get to live Ontologically, they murder all dissent They act the same, this is their remit: Where are your papers? Prove yourself to me! What are you […]
My thoughts on “Fight Oligarchy” tour stop: Vegas (1st Half Reaction Audio)
I am ignorant too, just like any other human. I mis-named this woman and I should have looked it up before getting started, but the thought was overflowing and I made a call and this is the result. I will do better. My apologies to Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, Congresswoman for the Bronx and Queens.
Archival: Community Advocacy, March 2025
Occasionally, when I feel I’ve presented my thinking especially well, I will archive the interaction here. Primarily because I believe in having my flowers when I think I deserve them, but also because it’s a convenient way to make my perspective clear. It doesn’t mean I cannot understand other perspectives, but it does mean this is the one I try to live by and with, which is helpful for others to understand. That said, the interaction as it occurred on the Discord channel, where I exist but as a single voice giving my own lived experience and thoughts to those […]
Track Title: As Me (Empathy)
ASCAP Registration # 929069985 You don’t know how it feels, to be living while you act this way You don’t know how it feels, so much contempt each and every day You don’t know how it feels, to see and know you just don’t care But there will come a day when common ground our feet shall bear On that day, it is you who will quickly, surely come to see We’re alike in our existence and our being, in our humanity You see me coming, because I, to you, am different I have stopped running, ‘cuz I am, for […]