(audio courtesy of https://notegpt.io – a free online text to speech generator) Captive, coerced, and controlled labor is the grail of economy. Cheap, captive, coerced, and controlled labor is the grail of capitalism. Cowed, cheap, captive, coerced, and controlled labor is the grail of power. Consider the focus and locus of all this activity and effort — it is enlightening: All economy stops without labor. Global Capitalism fails without labor. All Power crumbles without labor. If you sell your labor, every bit of the above is targeting you. Economy, Global Capitalism, Power, they ALL know their entire kingdom rests upon […]
Reflection, Midyear Thoughts
(Note: There is additional content in the audio that is NOT in the below as when reading, other thoughts occurred and where thus included, prefaced with ‘editorial addendum’ and an end cap of some few minutes on acknowledging privilege and an intention of keeping those voiceless many included as I can.) I’m watching other humans talking about their journey to autistic diagnosis and/or individual acceptance of autistic identity, but when I attempt to do the same, I find I’m stuck in a rut of needing to actively refactor my herstory and much of that work requires a mind space that […]
Thoughts on ‘handing out hits for free’, errata
In 2010, I submitted several ideas to my employer, a TCCG and Analog Pen and Paper Roleplay company: They laughed me out of the meeting and laid me off later that year. In June of 2023, thirteen years after I and all my suggestions got laughed out of the company, they finally released the LoTR cross over set. It is the #1 selling set of all time as I write this. To date, they have yet to manage print on demand, but it remains most likely to save their PnP brand. They didn’t go all in on their MMO, which […]
Considering ICE and my estranged family
I worry for my daughter and my grand-daughters. Does she, I wonder, realize that she is directly in the cross-hairs of current ICE efforts, alongside her daughters? Her father is Afghani (posing as Indian due to some hush-hush diplomatic status in the 80’s) and she is a citizen thanks to our birthright citizenship, which is a legal status that extends through her to her daughters. Now that this government is using HHS (medical), IRS (tax), and SSA (work) records to track and identify their new definition of ‘illegal’, all three are at risk and I seriously doubt this is even […]
My last words on this (estrangement)
When I look back on our family’s journey, it feels like a series of events that spiraled out of control, leading to a permanent estrangement that is both heartbreaking and deeply painful. When my daughter was 12, I had to let her live with her father for two years while I consulted on the road in an attempt to stabilize our family during the economic hardships of 2000-2001. I promised to have a place for her within two years, which I accomplished. But she “didn’t like” where I was living and rejected me, returning to live with her father. Even […]
Dim lit this future
It’s getting harder to manage my many health conditions and their comorbidities. I cannot seem to find work, and our network is basically myself and my husband. We’ve both tried to improve both social and professional networks, but have not seen much success. I keep applying and they keep ghosting or auto-rejecting me. I lack the mobility to do other work or I would be doing that. I’ve tried marketing my writing along various paths and nothing comes of it. I no longer know what to do. If I could math well enough to get my degree, I’d try that, […]
Thoughts on this moment – April 2025
The biggest crime this administration and its rooted eugenics, xenophobia, and insecurity (i.e., supremacist) have, are, and seemingly will continue to commit is an active and vehement conditioning of young AMABs on the matter of their ‘right’ to control, dominate, and possess (context: effective ownership) AFAB humans. While significant elements of this process include the explicit and public same against any/all minority, culturally different, Neurodivergent, Disabled, and/or Religiously different humans, the goal is to maintain the historical position of authoritarian power as both a (mythical) ‘race’ called ‘white’ and an equally mythical ‘natural’ or ‘biological’ supremacy as ‘The Binary Progenitor’ […]
Half past noon, from distance
half past noon, sixteenth the light of my life came forth yet I am shadowed struggle over years gone unrecognized only the mistakes made into these bricks a wall between two beings such selfish mortar does not life hurt all no being without such pain you think you’re alone hands once reached through brick slapped away incessantly old dogs learn new tricks distant uncaring be careful what you wish for all life has limits lessons returning time and the years will teach you all you now avoid time comes for us all I cannot be immortal so I tell you […]