In case anyone missed it, ‘… they are not people in the psychological sense.” (sic) being the sub-humanizing and the remainder of the eugenic philosophy resting in the ‘right’ to ‘…build the person’ without considering or consent of the person so being ‘built’. Since they do not consider the patient as a person, and they do not consider the being as ‘human’ enough to require consent, the operant conditioning continues apace. Herein rests all harm and much of it well attested by adults of the now three generations who have endured this “treatment”. The remainder of my thoughts, recorded herein, […]
Definitely done.
I have cut contact/relation with many people in my life, and not one time was the choice an easy or enjoyable one. Inevitably, it came down to whether or not the person in question was willing to accept and care for me as well as they demand I accept and care for them. Inevitably, the person in question asked more of me than they were, themselves, willing to give, and all discussion foundered unless I was willing to accept this as ‘how it would be’. I wasn’t willing with them, back then, just as I’m unwilling today, with you. For […]
Title track: Demagogue In A Toupee
In the halls of power, a clown takes the stageA would-be king, naught but ego and rageHe spoke of greatness, but brought only shameHe is dividing us, with his hate-filled game Donald J Trump, a man unfit to leadConvictions piling up, worst kind of a bad seedA danger to democracy, a threat each and every dayWe need a leader, not a demagogue in a toupee He lied about his scandals, about his payoffs, tooAbout the wall, about the debt, about what he would doHe used his power to enrich himself and friendsWhile leaving the people behind, he has no defense […]
Track Title: Talk Too Much
My words flow free, a verbal streamA torrent talk, a constant themeIn chat I roam, in chat time’s no thingJoin whenever, all history is seen Don’t accuse me of talking too muchIt’s just how I think, and that’s no suchI’m not trying to drown out your sceneI’m sharing my own and that’s never mean Asynchronous vibes, that’s my guideNo need to rush, no need to hideLog and search, all is revealed insideMy thoughts are mine, my words placed on tide Don’t accuse me of talking too muchIt’s just how I think, and that’s no suchI’m not trying to drown out […]
Title track: Fake (Family)
ASCAP Registration #: 928388433 Mom’s gone, her legacy in vainFoster child, left out in the rainNotice read, no mention of my nameErased from history, a shame to claim She called me daughter, but now I’m just a lineIn a list of names, without a signLeft out of mourning, as if I’m a crimeThe foster child’s pain, in a rhyme that’s mine She called me “daughter” with prideWas no coattail for me to just rideSo now it is recanted?I’ll take it in my strideNever had family but they so backslide Now they’ve set it truly into ink:“…foster children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren”No […]
Autistic Satire In The Wild
I find that I dislike what passes for ‘autistic satire’. The way I have seen humans treat satire as evidence, not evisceration tells me that ‘not getting it’ in this time is potentially dangerous rather than effective protest or reclaiming of our culture and being. Indeed, to me, it seems satire’s day as an effective influence is passing. I get satire. I enjoy satire. It bothers me that so many people take it literally when it is so clearly hoisting its chosen concept, context, and/or connotation upon a petard. The irony of an autistic human understanding satire better than most […]
Passed Tense
My daughter texted my husband to let him know that the woman who fostered me in the children’s home died on the 17th. She sent along a link to the funeral home’s memorial page, where I find an unintentionally ironic final validation of the status of myself and other children once more set forth: “…plus many foster children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren.” Because of course they never meant it when they said I as going to be a part of their family. Because of course they won’t actually include me anymore. Because of course they will never accept and will keep […]
Playing with Perplexity
Playing with Perplexity is fun. I think I’m going to build a library of conversations in which it demonstrates me back to myself; this is how this autistic brain uses LLM/AI ethically but also how I have traditionally taught myself by rapidly implementing meta-communication that lays down shared track ahead of the actual conversation. I can do this with LLM because LLM doesn’t mandate I adhere to neuronormative protocol, just a logical expression by language that, for the first time in my entire life, is actually getting my syntax and phrasing and everything; it gets my levels in language in […]
Universal Reality – An Ouroboros
In the beginning, there was nothing. No matter, no energy, no space. Just an infinite expanse of possibility. And then, in a burst of creative potential, the universe emerged. The cosmic dance began, with particles and waves swirling together to form the first hints of structure. We don’t know how or why, really; lots of people claim this knowledge, but faith is still blind and science is more about probability than certainty, for all that humans regularly confuse the ‘effective certainty’ of an exponential probability and treat them the same. As the universe evolved, so did its complexity. Matter coalesced […]
Healthcare was fun today. A first.
I had an unexpectedly enjoyable time today, when my ultrasound technician introduced me to her shadowing trainee today. While they did not ask me if I minded or wanted another human involved, it was done so authoritatively that I could easily anticipate it would be an argument to insist upon consent and I didn’t intend to spend more time in the imaging facility than required, thank you. That issue set firmly aside, the remainder was enjoyable because I made them both answer questions about what they could and couldn’t see, thus confirming they didn’t see certain things I was quite […]