just a reminder to myself — thre is a reason for the decision to be ‘done’ and when it comes, neither time nor circumstance can change it.
not because time and circumstance cannot change many things, but because when i am finally pushed to the point of being ‘done’, i have accepted that neither will ever change the thing that caused me to realize i must be ‘done’ for my own sake.
today, out of the blue, i received a phone call from someone with whom i am ‘done’. rather than convince me to change my mind, the manner of the call (which i will not go into) only underscored that much more obviously how and why the decision was, in fact, the right one to make.
i learned some time ago to be ok with being ‘done’. the time that has passed since that decision has not altered a thing. the circumstances have surely changed, but not enough to make me willing to endure it all over again.
i am still human. i wish it were different. but i am also wiser — i know it cannot be different.
it is unfortunate and sad this is the way of it. but this IS the way of it.
i have learned how to be alright with it…. it’s kind of what being ‘done’ is all about.
i suppose that’s all i really need to say.