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Track Title: Promises (Recall)
ASCAP Registration #: 929487026 This is an angry song. If you are someone who might have reason to feel hurt by anger you should choose something else. Maybe the early stuff. Very early stuff. For the rest of you, demo followed by lyric, below. Life is a two-way street, they say Whether we drive or walk our way Give and take come what may Keeps relationships free from fray Eroded and gone I find my trust Ignored and shut out, its ashes and dust It should be no surprise, I do now what I must Insist to set me aside, […]
On Being An Outlier
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been an an outlier—not just in the neurotypical world but even within neurodivergent spaces where I thought I might find understanding. I’m a hyper-verbal, hyper-empathic, flat-affect individual whose mental capability has always measured “extremely high”. These traits don’t just make me unique; they often leave me on the edges of communities where I desperately want to belong. I’ve spent decades navigating this dynamic, and while I’ve built spaces of my own—a blog, ASCAP-registered lyrics, and posts on platforms like Bluesky and Discord—I still encounter the same painful patterns. Conversations go silent when […]
My thoughts on “Fight Oligarchy” tour stop: Vegas (1st Half Reaction Audio)
I am ignorant too, just like any other human. I mis-named this woman and I should have looked it up before getting started, but the thought was overflowing and I made a call and this is the result. I will do better. My apologies to Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, Congresswoman for the Bronx and Queens.
Archival: Community Advocacy, March 2025
Occasionally, when I feel I’ve presented my thinking especially well, I will archive the interaction here. Primarily because I believe in having my flowers when I think I deserve them, but also because it’s a convenient way to make my perspective clear. It doesn’t mean I cannot understand other perspectives, but it does mean this is the one I try to live by and with, which is helpful for others to understand. That said, the interaction as it occurred on the Discord channel, where I exist but as a single voice giving my own lived experience and thoughts to those […]
Why I am so frustrated about working…
This image demonstrates the major categories of thinking desired by business and recommended by business management research and analysis: I offer all four across both diverse domains and specifically in technology; application and systems software analysis, design, development, and delivery and still I’ve been out of work since 2017. It is maddening. I cannot access the degrees that this world demands to ‘believe’ you’re good at something, even though I have thirty years, a portfolio of samples from 1999 to roughly 2011 (before the NDA work largely put an end to portfolio demonstrations). No one is interested. Over 5,000 resumes […]
The internalization must come out, sometimes.
I don’t have many people around these days who can recognize my value and are willing to articulate it on my behalf. I know what I can do, I like to show people what I can do, but after a point, it just sounds like so much self-absorbed pontificating. I wish I knew the way to get people to just SEE and RECOGNIZE what I am capable of… all this value potential sieving off into nothingness for lack of anyone interested in letting me help them bring something into reality. If I could code, I’d already be the next billionaire […]
The top of the year, 2025
It seems that 2025 is to be ‘the year of missing’ on many levels. Wait. I’m getting ahead of myself. Let’s start again: For many years, I would end each year with a renewal of my commitments and within the first month of the new year, set forth the pattern as it thus far unfolds. From there, as I like and wish, and spottily, I admit. Indeed, 2025 has all the signs of being a year of missing in many ways. Initially, I was somewhat enjoying the return of the wood snake; the sign is generally well received though it […]
Track Title: I Thought I Had
ASCAP Registration #: 928613845 Your laugh was like sunshine, warmed me from withinOh how I wish your sunshine were in my life again‘Once upon a time’ turned so quickly into ‘the end’A book, long left behind, I thought I had a friend Memories now linger, shadows in my mindThe echoes of our laughter, a bond I cannot findSecrets told on whispers both on and offlineI thought I had a friend, but now I’m left behind I hope you live every day without a single thought of meI hope you love and laugh often and are feeling peacefullyI hope you never […]
Definitely done.
I have cut contact/relation with many people in my life, and not one time was the choice an easy or enjoyable one. Inevitably, it came down to whether or not the person in question was willing to accept and care for me as well as they demand I accept and care for them. Inevitably, the person in question asked more of me than they were, themselves, willing to give, and all discussion foundered unless I was willing to accept this as ‘how it would be’. I wasn’t willing with them, back then, just as I’m unwilling today, with you. For […]