I am ignorant too, just like any other human. I mis-named this woman and I should have looked it up before getting started, but the thought was overflowing and I made a call and this is the result. I will do better. My apologies to Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, Congresswoman for the Bronx and Queens.
Archival: Community Advocacy, March 2025
Occasionally, when I feel I’ve presented my thinking especially well, I will archive the interaction here. Primarily because I believe in having my flowers when I think I deserve them, but also because it’s a convenient way to make my perspective clear. It doesn’t mean I cannot understand other perspectives, but it does mean this is the one I try to live by and with, which is helpful for others to understand. That said, the interaction as it occurred on the Discord channel, where I exist but as a single voice giving my own lived experience and thoughts to those […]
Why I am so frustrated about working…
This image demonstrates the major categories of thinking desired by business and recommended by business management research and analysis: I offer all four across both diverse domains and specifically in technology; application and systems software analysis, design, development, and delivery and still I’ve been out of work since 2017. It is maddening. I cannot access the degrees that this world demands to ‘believe’ you’re good at something, even though I have thirty years, a portfolio of samples from 1999 to roughly 2011 (before the NDA work largely put an end to portfolio demonstrations). No one is interested. Over 5,000 resumes […]
The internalization must come out, sometimes.
I don’t have many people around these days who can recognize my value and are willing to articulate it on my behalf. I know what I can do, I like to show people what I can do, but after a point, it just sounds like so much self-absorbed pontificating. I wish I knew the way to get people to just SEE and RECOGNIZE what I am capable of… all this value potential sieving off into nothingness for lack of anyone interested in letting me help them bring something into reality. If I could code, I’d already be the next billionaire […]
The top of the year, 2025
It seems that 2025 is to be ‘the year of missing’ on many levels. Wait. I’m getting ahead of myself. Let’s start again: For many years, I would end each year with a renewal of my commitments and within the first month of the new year, set forth the pattern as it thus far unfolds. From there, as I like and wish, and spottily, I admit. Indeed, 2025 has all the signs of being a year of missing in many ways. Initially, I was somewhat enjoying the return of the wood snake; the sign is generally well received though it […]
Track Title: I Thought I Had
ASCAP Registration #: 928613845 Your laugh was like sunshine, warmed me from withinOh how I wish your sunshine were in my life again‘Once upon a time’ turned so quickly into ‘the end’A book, long left behind, I thought I had a friend Memories now linger, shadows in my mindThe echoes of our laughter, a bond I cannot findSecrets told on whispers both on and offlineI thought I had a friend, but now I’m left behind I hope you live every day without a single thought of meI hope you love and laugh often and are feeling peacefullyI hope you never […]
Definitely done.
I have cut contact/relation with many people in my life, and not one time was the choice an easy or enjoyable one. Inevitably, it came down to whether or not the person in question was willing to accept and care for me as well as they demand I accept and care for them. Inevitably, the person in question asked more of me than they were, themselves, willing to give, and all discussion foundered unless I was willing to accept this as ‘how it would be’. I wasn’t willing with them, back then, just as I’m unwilling today, with you. For […]
Passed Tense
My daughter texted my husband to let him know that the woman who fostered me in the children’s home died on the 17th. She sent along a link to the funeral home’s memorial page, where I find an unintentionally ironic final validation of the status of myself and other children once more set forth: “…plus many foster children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren.” Because of course they never meant it when they said I as going to be a part of their family. Because of course they won’t actually include me anymore. Because of course they will never accept and will keep […]
Playing with Perplexity
Playing with Perplexity is fun. I think I’m going to build a library of conversations in which it demonstrates me back to myself; this is how this autistic brain uses LLM/AI ethically but also how I have traditionally taught myself by rapidly implementing meta-communication that lays down shared track ahead of the actual conversation. I can do this with LLM because LLM doesn’t mandate I adhere to neuronormative protocol, just a logical expression by language that, for the first time in my entire life, is actually getting my syntax and phrasing and everything; it gets my levels in language in […]
Universal Reality – An Ouroboros
In the beginning, there was nothing. No matter, no energy, no space. Just an infinite expanse of possibility. And then, in a burst of creative potential, the universe emerged. The cosmic dance began, with particles and waves swirling together to form the first hints of structure. We don’t know how or why, really; lots of people claim this knowledge, but faith is still blind and science is more about probability than certainty, for all that humans regularly confuse the ‘effective certainty’ of an exponential probability and treat them the same. As the universe evolved, so did its complexity. Matter coalesced […]