There is no feeling quite as sad as the feeling that you know something that you wish you did not. No, actually, there is one that is sadder; having that feeling first.

Ever have something truly unexpected fly into the frame? It’s a rare thing here, but it happened today. Everything is a bit on the floundering side at the moment, as I weigh options and consider new trajectory; initial plays on both sides are complete, but the entire matter is little more than a question mark for the moment. Yes, I know, cryptic. Alas, by necessity. I promise, when details may be made public, I’ll do so. For now, it’s all wishful thinking and crossed fingers and a bit of wonder for curveballs thrown by life. Wowsah.

The moment of a life’s triumph is an interesting and somewhat nebulous thing. The word, “triumph”, is usually reserved for feats of obvious heroism; usually, it is a term placed upon a single act that, in the doing, neutralizes all that preceded it. It is not a term that one finds applied to every-day successes, or defeating phobias, or even winning large-scale sporting events (well, not often). This morning, I had a rare and precious gift, one that may not sound like such a thing upon the mere letters used to name it here. I had a two hour conversation […]

What a glorious looking day. A wee bit on the chill side, but sunny skies with big, puffy clouds that one could look at and imagine into many things. I am idling; mostly pondering where the boundaries are and if I perceive any gap between where I find them and where I think they should be. It proves an interesting thing to consider, as the immediate question that rises is of that “Why is this so critical?” sort. You ever have this happen? Half of your brain is asking and the other half is looking puzzled and trying to figure […]

Always sharp; sometimes, enough to cut. (sigh) [singlepic id=964 w=320 h=240 float=]

The cycles of life are interesting to me. I note my own tend toward the extremely elliptic; long straights with tight little curves. I’m feeling calm and it has that sense of a long stretch of it, which is nice. Settling back into a normal routine in the aftermath of the house hunt gone bust, implementing plans for a more successful run at it next year, getting things in order to decide if I’m moving or not when the lease expires in June, and resuming a steady routine for college work as well as shifting my perspective in relation to “real work” […]

I used to know this girl, way back in the old neighborhood. She was the kind of person everyone talked about wanting to be. I’m sure you’ve met the type; strong, independent, caring, wise, and always just slightly ahead of everyone else. She was the kind of person who never seemed to be caught off guard so, naturally, everyone wanted her to be their guard. It was odd, the way people gravitated to her. She was like some great magnet and people, well, I guess they couldn’t help themselves. It wasn’t that she was beautiful; though I suppose she was […]

Do you know what stinks the most about a rudimentary research assignment? It is that, 9 times out of 10, you have to do more in-depth research (of significantly deeper variety) to get the results you require than the level of detail postulated by the assignment itself. For example – this week’s end assignment is to create statistics, graphics, or diagrams supporting my chosen thesis topic (A position in support of phonics as a component of a balanced literacy curriculum to attain effectiveness in instilling early reader literacy). Mind you, my thesis goal is simply to have and support a position. Nothing more; […]