Karmic waves, rippling,not yet fully resolved;I feel the weight, tugging.“White shores, and beyond,a far green countryunder a swift sunrise.”It doesn’t sound so bad,for all it feels soin this moment; but thatis not love, only loss,a muttering ego meandering,a maudlin tale of melancholy,a momentary mantra.
Friday Eve Update
An excellent Friday eve, this. I was able to burn test the memory overnight and this morning, re-slotted the third chip to run it and check for errors. Thus far, no problems. So either the seating/pairing was off or the last chip is the bad one. We’ll see. In other news, an interview late this afternoon for a short term contract. It seems very interesting, so I’m hopeful the hook is set. Again… we’ll see. All caught up on college coursework for the week (slightly ahead, actually), so I’ve been spending my time over at Quora.Com dabbling in punditry and […]
post-holiday update
For the first time in a very long time, I am seriously wishing time would pass more quickly. Not forever, but at least until January 31st. (chuckle) That’s the day by which “my fella” should be here rather than thousands of miles away in Georgia. The combination of job hunting, the recent holidays, and the college break have damn near run me looney for boredom during the day. I have “eaten” entire stacks of books (total read over the two week period is 25), all but napped myself into permanent insomnia it seems, and I must say, I was never […]
Health update…
A good day all around; the recount from May: – Weight is down 63 pounds (from 250 to 187) – Triglycerides are down from 527 (!!) to 153 – Hemoglobin A1C down from 10% to 5.6% – Average glucose count down from 384 (!!) to 121 The blood work today should be back from the lab by the beginning of next week. When it is, if the above numbers have improved (the Doctor is certain they will, as am I), I’ll likely be leaving off the Tricor and halving the Metformin. This is great success. And if I keep going […]
Merry Lamb Shift
Entwined, en-twinned, dichotomy; We pull restlessly at the constraint The transitory being is emergent The transitory ripple, ever moving Particle and Antiparticle Star-crossed The Lamb shift A pulse An exchange Closed system Quantum computer Calculating in space-time Stack dump and reboot We’ve been here before you know
reaching emptiness
i tally the last weeks of effort and find i am no further along than when i began in relation to building anything more than friendships and rarely that. martin was a funny, intelligent, enjoyable man. but he wanted all the trappings of commitment without having to make a commitment and that was the end of that. andy was a carefree, gentle man. our first date found me feeding him because he was out of work and penniless and our second date turned out the same and i just don’t have it in me to support someone and it is […]
three minutes (slam poetry)
Two hundred and fifty words As many as three hundred If one can manage elocution Three minutes to touch you To make you feel How many drops do you feel when it rains? What is it about this, the insistent pounding of the storm That makes us feel alive? The thunder of shared experience? The pulse of commonality? The chagrin of shared shame? Gathered, like so many doves amongst the branches of life’s tree Shivering in the storm Glory to the vibrato, the one who makes us feel Poet, preacher, penitent, fool Give us your words and remind us what […]
serencholia
the opposite of melancholia the flavor of missed things never known is ripe like fallen fruit, unclaimed heavy with unspent sweetness soft against hungry teeth
first date
dedicated to war by name vivere militare est smiling, at ease at parade rest as we spoke laughingly