pushing onward… this, item 9 from ‘the list’.
the list – 8 – blindness, inability to listen, and intolerance
continuing this, feeling somewhat relieved and perhaps even eager to be done with it all.
the list – 7 – delusions
returning to this after a time of letting all considered previously settle.
10-31-06, am
an early morning, banking, laundry, and errands to complete. but, for a moment, i review recent correspondance and set this here as a reminder…
10-28-06, what you never understood
The thing you never understood about it… you always accused me of ‘lashing out at you’ but I wasn’t lashing out at you. Lashing out at you is an intent…an intent of hurting, and intent of being negative. That was never what I did to you. That was never my intent in what I was sending to you.
10-28-06, pm
it occurred to me today. the understanding, that is. for a long time, i knew there was something out of place, wrong, and irrational in how you presented the matter. i couldn’t quite put my finger on it. it slipped away from the grasping of my mind, for some time i was lost in my effort of seeking understanding.
10-28-06, early am
woohoo for no sleep. my sleeping schedule is severely upside down at the moment.
10-27-06, pm
well… pods are out. the pricing is insane. interstate mileage. i could have guessed as much.