continuing from the previous, the next four of the twenty difficulties and my own admissions and thoughts… lessons for learning… i hope.
difficulties on the path (1 of 4)
listening to the internet stream, Dallam’s ‘I-sense’. which begins with the statement, ‘something here has gone very wrong.’ chuckling, i agree. oh boy. do i ever.
Refuge 11-19-06
to call this an auspicious day would be a profound understatement. today, i have taken official refuge within the drigung kagyu lineage.
08-21-06, am
I had this very bizarre dream last night. In it, I was choking to death on something. It was thick in my mouth and throat, too much so to cough up or out. Panic-stricken, I sent fingers to work, and began pulling great, thick gobs of it from me. It was like putty, of that consistency, and was slow to lift from membranes and mouth. But it was removable… This lightened the panic and as it partially opened the breathing path, the frantic nature of things was also lessened. At this point, it became a matter of almost morbid curiosity… […]
Broken-Hearted Warrior
“It is only through letting our heart break that we discover something unexpected: The heart cannot actually break, it can only break open… To live with a broken-open heart is to experience life full strength… When the heart breaks open, it marks the beginning of a real love affair with this world. It is a broken-hearted love affair, rather than the conventional kind based on hope and expectation. Only in this fearless love that can respond to life’s pain as well as its beauty can we be of real help to ourselves or anyone else in this difficult age. The […]
a contemplation upon the Three Jewels: The Sangha
[ed. note: this intial few paragraphs are maintained as introduction to those who may arrive to a single page rather than seeing this as part three of a series. for those following the series, these introductory paragraphs are now italicized, kindly feel free to scroll down to where you find this ends and read from the point of, “tonight, i contemplate the third of the Three, The Sangha.”] as part of an effort to learn, i undertake a good amount of research on the nature and meaning of what it is to take refuge in the Three Jewels and to […]
a contemplation upon the Three Jewels: The Buddha
as part of an effort to learn, i undertake a good amount of research on the nature and meaning of what it is to take refuge in the Three Jewels and to more deeply understand what they represent and how they provide that which is most helpful to the process of becoming. at every turn, thinking i grasp the concept, i find instead more to refine it, more to deepen it, and more to add to its luster. it is an interesting and deeply delightful thing, this seemingly infinite manner of understanding that as much reflects meaning as it defines […]