I find I’m not doing enough with this blog to justify the monthly expense. Sad, because I’ve been with this host for eleven years and they have just been aces.  We’re in the process of preparing for an extreme down-size and there is a part of me that is happy for it. I feel the weight of all this “stuff” and it rankles. Every piece of it is a cord and hook that shackles me to a culture that I abhor but, oops, I did it again? Meh. The plan is to have a hauler come and just take whatever […]

Albumin, blood sugar, creatinine, dialysis, endocrinology, frustration, gallbladder (gone), hysterectomy? I just know life must not overwhelm;  perhaps, quietly, restfully, serenely,  trust until victory will xeroticly jacht zen. Or not. I mean, really, when you add in the rest (and the lack of rest), the equation of balance becomes more and more overtly ludicrous; personally, I think the banal humor rests in that the names of things so completely obscure their meaning anymore… functional illiteracy meeting functional myopia meeting functional plausibility and having themselves a good laugh around the circumstances and events colliding in and around me. Palindromic Rheumatism sounds […]

An open letter to The United States Senate, in particular to those currently serving in the capacity of adjudication in the matter of potential Supreme Court Justice, Honorable Brett Kavanaugh: It is with some quiet wonderment that I witness this, the latest skirmish within the halls of what is supposed to be our most humble and vociferous protectors, stewards, and leaders. It occurs to me that our country has fallen entirely into conflict and disarray; no more so is this obvious than in watching actual, live footage of an event intended to vet, vouch, and validate a candidate for one […]

Figuring out my carbohydrate tolerance was an important part of regaining focus and control – every benefit outlined in the below clip is accurate in my personal experience; unfortunately, most insurance seems to want to insist upon 2 level checks a day if you’re “well managed”. (As if getting there and staying there doesn’t require a minimum of 4 to 6 tests a day, with spikes to the routine if/when new foods are introduced to the diet).  I find it ironic that in this day of “big data” and all swirling thereabouts, even in the insurance industry, no one has […]

She never made the time because she thought she had all the time. It never occurred to her that every moment is a gift, or that none are permanent or even guaranteed. It’s not her fault. Life happens. You get busy. You choose what is closest or easiest, what is fastest and less likely to introduce any unexpected factors that might disrupt well laid and considered plans. But there is a flawed premise sitting under all of that; it is that one could ever hope to calculate all the variables to a high confidence of relevancy… most humans, frequently myself […]

At the end, it doesn’t matter where first cause is found, who is to blame, or even why it happened. It matters only that I love you, and I have tried to get close enough to demonstrate that love for nearly two decades, without much success. It is maddening that you insist I have not tried when I can point to so many attempts, rejected and ignored. It is hurtful that you persist in false narrative when even a cursory review reveals that what is being claimed is impossible given the routines and circumstances of the time – all of […]